Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Love, Love and more happiness


"It's oh so quiet
it's oh so still
you're all alone
and so peaceful until

you fall in love (zing! boom!)
the sky up above (zing! boom!)
is caving in (wow! bam!)
you've never been so nuts about a guy
you wanna laugh you wanna cry
you cross your heart and hope to die

'til it's over and then
it's nice and quiet
but soon again
starts another big riot

you blow a fuse (zing! boom!)
the devil cuts loose (zing! boom!)
so what's the use (wow! bam!)
of falling in love"

lyrics by Bjork from the album, POST - IT'S OH SO QUIET

I am so content, so peaceful and just in love with this beautiful guy who is sweet, sensitive and caring - just completely amazing. I look back at the idiots I wasted my time with and wonder what kind of drug I was on, oh yeah, it's called dick. It's gets us all every time and if dick isn't your cup of tea, then it must be pussy. In any case, we've all stumbled upon someone we couldn't get out of our systems. It's hot, no denying that I had a fantastic ride dating and acting a fool with these guys but it was tired. I began to downright loathe some of them for their proposterous behavior and inability to resemble grown-ass men and not mama's boys or weak-minded pansy-ass, (not a slur to gay men, in fact, gay men in my humble opinion are the true form of self-made, strong-minded individuals who can stand on their own without utilizing a woman, minus the use of "fag hags"), victims. Goodbye drama and welcome to bliss. Every relationship starts off with the honeymoon but we've yet to fight all month. We had sweet trip to San Francisco together and just chilled out and talked about our goals for the year. It was peaceful and just fuckin' great. I've met a dreamer, just like me.

Work has never been better since I got fired. Job hunting is a sweet deal. I got away from the micro-managing boss from crack hell and moved back to my couch to listen to Bjork, get great love from my new guy and use of his laptop and see where my future lies. I'm still moving east to New York City and then possibly Japan to meet my new love. We'll see how it goes. I've never felt so free to just go with the flow. It's so good for me. I've submitted my article to a nationally recognized magazine for lesbian women, finished my volunteer work for the AIDS ride and I'm currently working on fund development for a local non-profit. I made great money last year and went to Vegas to see my brother. I'll double my commission this year and take a trip or something. It'll be great.

I've enjoyed my month vacation and just had my first interview on Monday. I met with my old co-worker and dished about our old place of employment, opportunities with her organization and the great skills I would provide. It was nice to see her. She looked fabulous as always.

Well, off to enjoy my bliss and wish me luck...these things don't happen everyday, that is I don't fall hard and have not (in this way in awhile) in a year. Moving on the eastside! I finally got a piece of the PENIS! (A good one, that gives me a big fat O and a great dose of love and support)